let it sneaks into your heart

Sunday, November 25, 2012

a heart without ache is nothing. but ache without heal is worst.

well, cry out loud. cry till you are dying. and just cry, thought everything will get better. thought everything will get its own place. like it used to be. blame nature, why things get so hard? blame faith, why does this happens to me? what did i do wrong? why there is no explanation for this? why do i cant see the good reason? you lose your hope. you lose your smile. you lose your half. you lost your faith. you lose your happiness. you lose your love. you lose your life. you just lose everything. you are such a lonesome. you are totally alone. the one that always hear you, gone. the one that always been the reason you smile, gone. the one that bring you up when you are down, gone. the one that totally means everything to you, gone. its gone, dear. its gone. people say, that it is time to move on. is it? while you are totally tired to cry, you are totally tired to stay, you are totally miserable, you do hope that you will get your ass and move on. the sadness, the pain aint let you leave them. aint let you to go chase your happiness. i dont even know why it is so hard. i dont even know what is happiness actually means without you. why do blame me that i am not there for you, but actually you are the one who is searching for someone else to share your things. who am i? tell me, who am i? but still, i cant forget you. but still i am hoping for you, but still i am loving you like i always did, like i always proved to you and it is actually more than i did before. why didnt gave me chance to prove another? why did gave up way too easily? dont you even remember? you are the one that always told me not to give up way too easily, the one that always remind me that stay whatever happens. but why did you did all the things you ask for me not to? yet, i still cant blame you. i know there is must be a reason. but when will i know the reason? nobody knows except you. you may lie to your mum, your bestfriends, her, me, everyone. but you will never lie to your hearts, dont you? every word you said, your actions, your tweets. there is always a hidden meaning. i know you. very well.

hear me, irresistible by one direction.

 you know what? the one that you imagined when this song play for the first time, its who the one you love and there are a lot of memories between you and your love.

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

its 21st people. a date that will makes me smile all day long if you are beside me. but now, you are gone. you are way too far from me, so it seems that i cant smile all day long like i used to be. it aint  bleeding anymore. i try to accept. i try to let it go. yup, let it go. its the hardest decision ive made. forgive him, forgive her may be the bestest way. i try to act matured, so this is what i am. yup, you are my ex, but if we are meant to be, insyallah, one fine day. i just wanna state, that i miss you. yup, i  miss how we celebrate our monthsarry. i blew up my lighter and celebrated it all alone. how i wish you are here with me, love. i couldnt say much. i dont wanna this tears ruin up my mum's birthday :) so, bye.

w all her hearts,